I could never know how God feels. His ways are not my ways. But, sometimes, I know the pain of less than everything love. God wants me to love Him with no less than everything. It says in Matthew that, compared to my love for God, the love for my family would seems as hate. Why? Because we love God because He first loved us. And if my love is imitating God's love, then it should be no less than everything love. But, I'm honest, I love God with a "I have some time on my hands, I'm aware of You daily in my life, I call on You more when I have a need, My husband and kids come first sometimes" kind of love. But can I even call it love? God is my Savior, My Father, My Comforter....but is He my Lord? I know how God feels when His people love Him a little. I know what it's like to share affection with someone else, affection that is supposed to be wholly mine as God laid it out in His Word. I know why God says He's a jealous God. He gave us free will, so we make the choices we do, but He can be jealous for the Love that is due Him. I'm jealous for that love. I want the "forsaking ALL others, no room in my heart for a deep friendship with another, you are second only to God to me" kind of love. But first, maybe I need to learn to give My LORD and Savior the same?